Pound of Bricks

I really need to rant.

The past few weeks have been a roller coaster that I don't want to be on.

It started with me breaking up with Xander, who I've been dating for almost 2 years now. Then, I started flirting with others and my friends were trying to set me up with some guys. I ended up going on a date but I'm 7 years younger than the guy.

And now, I'm getting hit with a pound of bricks because I miss Xander. I miss being in a relationship. Especially with a guy who appreciates me.

What I miss the most, sadly to say, is the kissing. The comfort in it. The thought of someone wanting you.

And now its gone. And I'm stuck not knowing what to do.

Something about me...

So I forgot to post yesterday, so here is two.

1. After watching Signs when I was younger I became terrified of the color red. It symbolized something about to happen. Finally after years, its now one of my favorite colors.
2. Through middle school and high school, I took 5 years of theatre. I also took an acting class at Hale Centre Theatre. But the thing is, I never thought I was any good. I improved but it wasn't enough to be in any plays (except spring showcase) or any musicals (I don't sing).

Things about myself...

So I'm going to try to blog more. And I realized I'm wierd and unique so I should say random things about myself. Maybe 1 a day. I'll start with 5.

1. I HATE it when other people use my pillow. I can smell them and it drives me crazy. I dunno why, but I've always been like that.
2. I don't know how to swim. I had lesson when I was younger but my teacher threw me into the deep end and kinda forgot about me. And my cousin drowned, but luckily my aunt was able to bring her back to life by cpr. And yes, I've tried learning since.
3. I have 2 half sisters, 1 half brother, 2 step sisters, 1 dad, and 3 moms. I'm pretty lucky.
4. I don't have dreams. And if I do, they're nightmares. Reoccurring ones. They happen once or twice a year. And I hate them.
5. I've never broken a bone. I've had stitches twice, one for a surgery on my toe (tumor) and one for when my wisdom teeth were removed.

Okay, there you go! Enjoy.

Gandhi's Top 10 Fundamentals For Changing The World

1. Change yourself
2. You are in control
3. Forgive and let go
4. Take care of this moment
5. Without action you aren't going anywhere
6. Everyone is human
7. See the good in people and help them
8. Persist
9. Be congruent, be authentic, be your true self
10. Continue to grow and evolve

B&W

Some of you probably are my friend on Facebook and see my little statuses. The other day I commented on how I wanted to take famous black and white photos. So from then on I've been messing with my own photos and changing them.

But I also have been doing my research on the internet. And these are some that have caught my eye.











































Well, that's all folks!

Big Step for Me

I'm finally doing it. I'm getting medication for my anxiety. And its stressing me out. Not a good mix. Oh well.

Camera

So I still need to name my camera. I haven't decided whether it's a boy or a girl. If you have any suggestions, contact me. It would be much appreciated. :)