HELLO

Life is good, and then at times it's not

Today was rolling hills of good and bad times. Started out with me waking up early and setting out with my father to fix my car. Figured out what was wrong. My dad was amazing and bought the new part for me and installed it. Ran to Target to buy my friends a gift for her bridal shower and ended up buying a whole outfit so I didn't have to go home. Had a fun time at the bridal shower. Went home and relaxed with my family. My sister and her husband came over and had dinner and dessert. Then when we're settling down, my parents get all fired up and mad at each other. But other than those little bumps, today was pretty great. I've been happy most of the week, which is very uncommon for me. Maybe there is something in the water...

Pound of Bricks

I really need to rant.

The past few weeks have been a roller coaster that I don't want to be on.

It started with me breaking up with Xander, who I've been dating for almost 2 years now. Then, I started flirting with others and my friends were trying to set me up with some guys. I ended up going on a date but I'm 7 years younger than the guy.

And now, I'm getting hit with a pound of bricks because I miss Xander. I miss being in a relationship. Especially with a guy who appreciates me.

What I miss the most, sadly to say, is the kissing. The comfort in it. The thought of someone wanting you.

And now its gone. And I'm stuck not knowing what to do.

Something about me...

So I forgot to post yesterday, so here is two.

1. After watching Signs when I was younger I became terrified of the color red. It symbolized something about to happen. Finally after years, its now one of my favorite colors.
2. Through middle school and high school, I took 5 years of theatre. I also took an acting class at Hale Centre Theatre. But the thing is, I never thought I was any good. I improved but it wasn't enough to be in any plays (except spring showcase) or any musicals (I don't sing).

Things about myself...

So I'm going to try to blog more. And I realized I'm wierd and unique so I should say random things about myself. Maybe 1 a day. I'll start with 5.

1. I HATE it when other people use my pillow. I can smell them and it drives me crazy. I dunno why, but I've always been like that.
2. I don't know how to swim. I had lesson when I was younger but my teacher threw me into the deep end and kinda forgot about me. And my cousin drowned, but luckily my aunt was able to bring her back to life by cpr. And yes, I've tried learning since.
3. I have 2 half sisters, 1 half brother, 2 step sisters, 1 dad, and 3 moms. I'm pretty lucky.
4. I don't have dreams. And if I do, they're nightmares. Reoccurring ones. They happen once or twice a year. And I hate them.
5. I've never broken a bone. I've had stitches twice, one for a surgery on my toe (tumor) and one for when my wisdom teeth were removed.

Okay, there you go! Enjoy.

Gandhi's Top 10 Fundamentals For Changing The World

1. Change yourself
2. You are in control
3. Forgive and let go
4. Take care of this moment
5. Without action you aren't going anywhere
6. Everyone is human
7. See the good in people and help them
8. Persist
9. Be congruent, be authentic, be your true self
10. Continue to grow and evolve