Life is good, and then at times it's not

Today was rolling hills of good and bad times. Started out with me waking up early and setting out with my father to fix my car. Figured out what was wrong. My dad was amazing and bought the new part for me and installed it. Ran to Target to buy my friends a gift for her bridal shower and ended up buying a whole outfit so I didn't have to go home. Had a fun time at the bridal shower. Went home and relaxed with my family. My sister and her husband came over and had dinner and dessert. Then when we're settling down, my parents get all fired up and mad at each other. But other than those little bumps, today was pretty great. I've been happy most of the week, which is very uncommon for me. Maybe there is something in the water...

Pound of Bricks

I really need to rant.

The past few weeks have been a roller coaster that I don't want to be on.

It started with me breaking up with Xander, who I've been dating for almost 2 years now. Then, I started flirting with others and my friends were trying to set me up with some guys. I ended up going on a date but I'm 7 years younger than the guy.

And now, I'm getting hit with a pound of bricks because I miss Xander. I miss being in a relationship. Especially with a guy who appreciates me.

What I miss the most, sadly to say, is the kissing. The comfort in it. The thought of someone wanting you.

And now its gone. And I'm stuck not knowing what to do.